The deep dive had me see more important questions that I needed to address first. What was I expecting and was I doing what was necessary to achieve those expectations? I immediately saw that somewhere along this journey I got lost.

When I first adopted the practice of keeping a common place notebook, I used it as “the experts” recommended (I seem to have a thing for following experts advice before I decide to follow my own heart). But then I naturally fell into a flow of no fuzz, no restrictions, use as needed way of keeping this notebook.

I write what comes to mind, even if it doesn’t make sense, until it starts making sense and I start seeing what was beneath the junky thoughts. For sure, pearls of wisdom come through once the junk is removed. And pearls of wisdom can be anything like the one a couple of weeks ago: “discard any items that no longer fit who you are today.”

This is an artist account and I’m questioning sharing what I’m about to share. Yet, I’ve found that to be creative, I’ve had so much inner clean up to do!

The biggest challenge on this path, for me, has been mindset. I’ve always been disciplined. I do what I say I’m going to do. But also, I have this behavior that because it creeps up unexpectedly, it can hold me back.

I’ve been on a long journey to get to a day like today. A day when I wake up and my first thought is: what will I create today? the question brings me to my center and focuses my creative energy. It wasn’t always like this.

I started hoping and wishing to take concrete steps to transition since 2017, but the path, the steps were not clear. Frustration took over and I let it go, not the art, just the steps to manifest a business into reality. It’s 2023 and I took multiple steps that had nothing to do with art to clear the way, not with the hopes and wishes of finally making the transition into a business but with a determination to live my life, to live a creative life and to create my life.